Another pregnancy test, another negative. Two years of working on it, 18 months of "trying", one heartbreaking loss and seven negative tests. I set an unofficial goal for myself: I would use my 35th year to try for a third baby. If I didn't get pregnant after the medications, the careful calculations, the frantic mental math...I would be okay. I have two beautiful, amazing, unique souls that were already entrusted to me by the Universe.